JAN 2019 | In our mind's eye and in the eyes of others, we are always In Construction. My short suite of poetry exploring this theme is published, with a personal introduction, in Wake Up Screaming’s e-zine #17 ‘The Mind’.
Lilly, you sparkled today.
The raconteur of 19B.
When you get out you could write a book.
Chapter One you tell us
is called “Sit Down Cynthia”,
the automated voice you hear every time Cynthia is on the move again.
They recorded it in Cynthia’s own voice
so she argues with herself.
“Got to see the funny side” you say.
After visiting hours
I’m shown pictures of your scalp.
A reluctant ghoul,
I half take in your flesh,
Wrapped with the track of an O.S. map,
though still in construction.
Luton and Dunstable Hospital, 2017
Grinning you extend the box of Belgian chocolates.
Growing up it was Minstrels
on the way home from piano at Mrs.Gunner's.
"Know why Minstrels are so good?"
(It was your ritual question)
"Hard shell Dad,
won't melt in yer hand"
(It was my ritual reply)
Then we'd tear back the bag
and tuck in.
The foil-wrapped double dozen are untouched
and I sense
When it stopped at you
you could see it.
Now it plumes and swells beyond your frame
you think it's gone.
Before We Met
We toss and turn,
crack open the window
and I squeeze the lavender bags above our heads.
What kind of thoughts do you chew on when you can't sleep?
For me, it's future versions of myself.
Gigs I have not given,
a story not half good but not yet written.
I grind my teeth and picture all the things I do not have
but have inside.
I don't mind.
I get up to get you water
all my thoughts of you
before we met.
Did curiosity get the better of you?
For me it came knocking on the windows.
For my part
there were dreams.
Last time there were two in a row.
Back to back
I found you
taking a dip in
The next time you were nowhere to be seen
and your friends could well believe it.